It’s my birthday today. I spent the better part of the day today reading through Shaun’s notes, emails, etc. I’ve avoided much of that over the last couple of months… thinking that it might relieve some pain. It hasn’t… it’s just made things feel… well, empty.
Re-living where we were a year ago today, I have had the biggest smile on my face that I’ve had for months. Granted, there were tears flowing freely, but the sweetness of his heart, his witty charm, chased the darkness out and made me laugh the gut laugh! Like he always has, his humor, his silliness, and his love lit a flame of warmth and light inside me.
Shaun is so clever and delightful with words… but he is also so concerned, real, and humble in his testimony. It seems like his words are more for me right now than they were then…
“I don't understand it all. God tells me I won't understand it all until I'm with Him. Ahh, there it is again... faith. Man that's a tough one. For whatever God has in store for you, I don't know, but I know he'll take care of you for relying on Him. His Grace is sufficient. We all hurry to make our lives something, but I think God's timeline is much different. He's working in our lives through a process of us learning to trust Him. Patience is something I struggle with, seems like it's been long enough, in my eyes. And yet I pray for God's Will to be done...so I must let it be His Will and not mine.”
- Shaun Lunt – 12/01/07
Such a sweet man. He simply and transparently shares words of wisdom.
I wish he were here.
I wish I were there.
Anybody know if Birthday wishes on candles actually come true? Except I didn't actually have a cake... or a candle...
But, as Shaun reminds me even now, faith has to win. God’s timeline is different than my own. Bad days eventually come to an end. Heavenly promises are always kept. He’s working in our lives… be patient… let it be His will and not mine.
Missing you always.
Heidi
Isaiah 41:10 - For the Lord thy God will hold thy right hand, saying unto thee, Fear not; I will help thee.
5 comments:
Beautifully said.
Why is it we learn so much, so painfully, from the tragedies of life. It is a sweet legacy to Shaun that he lives on so completely in your heart. We just heard this phrase, and it feels like it belongs to you "Love is not finding someone to live with; it's finding someone you can't live without." We know that Heavenly Father has a plan for Shaun, and for you. And your faith will lead you on as you discover what that Plan is. We love you.
My words echo Tiffany's - beautifully done, Heidi. There's the makings of a beautiful love story chick flick here. Happy belated birthday. I'm glad it was a happy reminiscing one.
Love you, Mama Connie
Happy Birthday Heidi. I love you.
Hi Heidi. My name is Ron and Shaun was my nephew. I just wanted to say that we all miss him so much. He has touched so many, so much more deeply that he ever knew. I don't see why Shaun was allowed to be taken, we so desperately need many more just like him in this old world!!!!
Anyway, I just wanted to say that I enjoyed your video. It is very nice! Homesick is the song that I suggested to Margie for the Memorial Service. I have always liked this song, but now, it sure hits home and has real meaning!! Many of the pics I have seen before, but many I have not. I enjoyed the pics of you both shooting. I know how much he enjoyed this. I now have his .454 Casull and extremely proud of it!!
Anyway, I just wanted to say hi and Happy Birthday. If you would like to take a look, I have posted pics of Shaun's Memorial Service and the whole week end here.
http://ront.smugmug.com/Shaun%20Lunt%201973%20-%202008
I am truly looking forward to the day when we can all spend eternity with Shaun!! He was one great guy!!
Take care, Ron
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