We just passed the 4.5 year anniversary of Shaun leaving this world. It has been 1659 days...
I miss him... so much I miss him.
This blog has changed from what it was intended to be. Obviously it had to. Our posts were so happy, full of passion, laughter, and adventures. And for the last four and a half years it's just efforts at building scar tissue through grief. Sometimes I feel like he would be disappointed in the lack of living being done by this woman he loves... but I also know he understands and aches for my sorrow. I feel like he is always standing just out of reach with a hand, asking me to move a little faster and try a little harder. He's reminding me good stuff is ahead... HE is ahead.
Walking at all was a tall order for a while. Living and caring seemed a far away thought. He was sunshine to me.
Hopes for 2013 - Find God in it, find greatness in it.... carry Shaun while not being crushed under the weight of the loss. What a balancing act!
Happy 39th birthday my love. I'm getting wrinkles... sucks that you're not.
